I'm Back...Exhausted

Lama jugak aku x update blog nih.Mcm2 yg terjadi.Sangat sibuk diri ini.hehe.

Mula dr tanggal 26/7 yang lalu,keluarga aku redha menerima pemergian nenda tersyayang ke rahmatullah setelah 3 tahun bergelut dengan penyakit alzheimer.Alhamdulillah semua ahli keluarga berada di sisinya ketika dia menghembuskan nafas yg terakhir.Aku tak tahu kenapa tp aku tersangat murah air mata pada hari itu.Mungkin mengenangkan arwah yg membesarkan aku dr umurku 3 bulan hinggalah 7 tahun.Aku adalah cucu bongsu yg sangat dimanjakan.Paling sedih ketika nenda tercintga dikapankan,aku jadi terlalu sebak.Lalu aku,yong,mama,dan makcikku x dapat menahan juraian air mata..Huh..yang pergi tetap pergi.Lagipun dia telah terlalu uzur.82 tahun.

Aku ingat lg,hari sabtu tu my mum and my sis semua sibuk call aku suruh balik.So aku decide balik ke kg dan sampai dalam pukul 5 ptg.Sampai je aku terus cium opah.Mulutnya ternganga,matanya tertutup.Tapi bila aku panggil 'opah',seakan akan nafasnya lebih kuat.Mungkin dia sedar 'ya' dah balik.Mlm tu aku teman mama,yong dan ciknyah yg bergilir gilir menemani dan membacakan yassin utk opah.Dalam pukul 3 lebih kurang,aku yg mmg duduk bersila depan opah sedar yg opah tetiba buka mata.Aku mcm x percaya,terus panggil mama,and mama pun duduk dkt opah.Makin lama nafasnya semakin keatas,lalu semua ahli keluarga dikejutkan.X sampai 5 minit kemudian opah pun pergi selamanya.Semua yg ada terdiam.Mama pula dipeluk abah dgn ungkapan sabar.Atuk pula mula memeluk jasad opah sambil berkata 'Dah aku tinggal sorang..Aku dah xde sape lg..."Sedih btl aku.

Siang tu mula dr lepas semayang subuh rumah dah penuh dgn pengunjung.And by noon,semua sedara kau from all over msia da sampai.Mmmg ramai.Sampai jem kg aku.Ape pun syukurlah,ramai yg sempat menjenguk arwah.

Ptg tuh sambil memasak utk utk kenduri tahlil,masing2 tersenyum sambil bercerita ttg opah ketika akhir hayatnya.Opah mmg nyanyuk.Penyakit org tua.Jadi perangainya kembali seperti kanak2.Mmg dia x ingat pada kami.Cuma kadang2 je...Rindu kat pah..

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So start drpd tu tiap2 minggu aku balik kg.Then last week aya plak tetibe demam.Panas giler badan dia.Sampai lembik.Kelam kabut aku bwk dia gi kpmc kul 2 pg.Lama jugak br nak reda.Dalm seminggu sebab disusuli dengan demam campak palsu yg mcm x palsu pon...Alhamdulillah da ok.Tp time demam aya mmg xnk mkn org minum susu sgt menyebabkan dia hilang berat bdn bnyk sgt.Sampai tggl 7.2kg bila doc check.Doc tu plak ingat aya underweight.So now dia da sihat,dia da start mkn bnyk balik.Nanti ujung bulan nak gi wat check up,nak tgk berat dia balik.Dah naik da tuh.

Time aya demam tuh,aku doa kat tuhan biarlah dia cepat sembuh.Xpe,jangkitkan jer demam tu pada aku.X sanggup aku tgk dia helpless mcm tuh.Mungkin Allah kabulkan doa aku,now aku dah dkt seminggu demam.Siap hilang suara lg.Huhu.

Apa2 pun,hidup ni mmg bnyk dugaan.Kadang2 benda tu jd tanpa disangka sangka.Dan mana tau ada kejutan disebaliknya...Wallahualam...

~GIvIng Out FReAkY-FuN-FriDAy HuGs!~

Seronoknyer bila time weekend.Especially bila weekend ujung2 bln nih.Hehe.Seronok2..x tau la nak buat apa.Actually da bnyk da plan aku.

Nak bawak yaya jumpa auntie syidotnyer.Last week had to cancel.Padahal Cik Dot kata dia da siap bawak kamera lagi nak suruh cinonet ai nih posing.Sori ek Cik Dot.Minggu nih kite jumpa.And to Has,sori la,x dapat le nak jumpa almaklumla org tu dah jauh dimata.Paka nun jauh weh..Tak dapat jumpe mung..Nantila mung balik sini,mung datang lawat anak buah mung nih,k?

Ingat nak gi picnic.Tp biasalah,aku kalau weekend terlewat skit bgn.Manja2 gitu..ehehe.Ada gak ajak babah yaya nih gi zoo..dia ya kan aje.Katenya jgn nanti mummy x bgn sudahh...Biasa la tu.

Then ada gak plan nak balik kg.Makan deroyan.Dah nak habis musim dah pun.Tu pun kalau daddy antar keta gi servis.Bnyk benda mummy nak tukar nih.Tp....dd kata..tgk la dulu.Cam x jd je tu..



Tp kan...nak ajak dady gi jalan2 tepi pantai.PD ke..melaka ke...beshnyer.Aku dah setahun x gi pantai.Last pergi pun time aku ngandung dulu.Sempat gak geting2 tepi pantai walaupon memboyot.Sambil bersila atas tembok tu,makan ais krim.Nyum nyum..Tp kalau gi waterfalls pun ok kan?

But..One thing for sure...mesti gi shopping.Confirm la.Agaknya apa dd nak treat mummy this month.Ini lg ker??Rasanya x kot.Jemu dah.


We'll see ek..kemana kaki melangkah.Kemana selera bertambah.err...

~JoN & kATe PLUs 8..IT's OveR.ThEy'Re DivOrceD!~

Whoever did watch this?Well i did.Jon and kate were supposedly happily married couple with 8 small children under 1 roof.At first they went for fertility treatments and got a pair of twins.And a year later they decided to give it another try for one more child but they end up getting a handful of 6.3 pairs of twins.

Yup..it was hard.Knowing that their marriage was over.How would the kids be?At first mummy pun cam terkejut jugak.Knowing from the show's tag line.But later when i Google,gosh,it was all true.Too bad.Maybe it wasn't really a 'reality' show after all..what they showed on tv..

The show wasn't really a hit in malaysia so we didn't get any chance to hear the gossips and news that has been rumoured around.What i read was,Jon was with another woman.A dumb blond.And kate still with the children.Pity her.

This really proved that a mother would always be a mother.No matter if she spanked them for misbehaving or when the husband cheats,she's still a mom.Wishing all the best for them.

I guess this is the outcome when we don't have some quality time with our man.No matter how busy we are with the kids,we should kept some time aside for him.Maybe some would say that i'm just a talker but i tried my best with my man.ehem..My dearest daddy.

I hope that they would get some counselling.And Jon,please grow up!Even kate needs a break somtimes but she's not yelling for it.DuH!

http://www.mns.co.uk/01214536.html

~IF U HAve ThE HeArT..ReAD THIS!!~

Diana Nelson,6 week old infant,was beaten to death,dipaksa menelan xanax,an anti depresant pill,melecur akibat dibakar dgn puntung rokok.Rest in peace.And to all babies out there yang menjadi mangsa kezaliman manusia yg sepatutnya mati.

There's nothing much to say..Just read this if u have the heart to.

http://en.wordpress.com/tag/child-abuse-homicide/

~SeLepAs KAwiN...LoL~

Ayat Selepas Kahwin

Sebelum Tido:
6 minggu: Selamat tido Sayaaang, mimpi indah-2 ya, mmmuach.
6 bulan: Tolong matikan lampu tu, silau aah.
6 tahun: Sana sikit lah... Tido kalau tak mengepit tak bole ker???!

More than 10 years : Tido asing2….laki tido depan tv, bini tido ngan anak2…hahaha

Pakai Toilet:
6 minggu: Tak apa, U masuk ler dulu, I tak kisaaahhhh
6 bulan: Masih lama lagi ke nih?
6 tahun: Brug! brug! brug! (suara pintu digegar), kalau nak bertapa pilah gunung ledang sana !!!

Balas SMS:
6 minggu: Iye Sayang, jap lagi I sampai rumah. Sayang, I belikan murtabak favourite U ye Sayang..
6 bulan: Trafik jam aah
6 tahun: K..

16 tahun : …………………. (tak balas terus!!!) hehehe….

Dating process:
6 minggu: I love U, I love U, I love U.
6 bulan: Of course I love U.
6 tahun: Iyalah!! kalau I tak cintakan U, buat apa I nikah dengan U???

More Than 10 Years : Buang tebiat ker you ni? Cakap mengarut….

Pulang Kerje:
6 minggu: Sayaaang, I dah balik nih...
6 bulan : I'm BACK!!
6 tahun: Masak apa hari ini??

Hadiah (ulang tahun):
6 minggu: Sayang, I harap U suka cincin yang I beli untuk U ni
6 bulan: I beli lukisan, nampak sesuai dengan suasana ruang tengah
6 tahun: Nih duit, U beli sendirilah apa yg U nak..

More Than 10 Years : Dah tua2 pun nak beli hadiah ker? Mcm budak2 jer..

Telefon:
6 minggu: Baby, ada yang ingin berbual ngan U di telefon nih
6 bulan: Eh... Your call...
6 tahun: WOOIII TELFON BUNYI TUUUHHH.... ANGKAT AAAAAHHH!!!


Masakan:
6 minggu: Wah, tak sangka I, pandai U masak..Rasa pun sedappp...!! !
6 bulan: Kita makan apa malam ini??
6 tahun: HAH!! LAUK INI LAGI?

10 Than 10 Years : Today balik lambat, I makan kat luar ngan kengkawan…

Memaafkan:
6 minggu: Sudahlah, tak apa, dah pecah pun, nanti kita beli lagi yang lain,eh
6 bulan: Hati-hati, nanti jatuh tuh.
6 tahun: Orang dah bilang berkali-2 pon tak paham!!

Baju baru:
6 minggu: Aduh sayang, U seperti bidadari dengan pakaian itu
6 bulan: Lah... Beli baju baru lagi?
6 tahun: DAH BERAPA RIBU HABIS BELI BAJU TU???

Merancangkan Holiday:
6 minggu: Macam mana kalau kita jalan-jalan ke Amerika atau ke tempat yg U nak honey?
6 bulan: Kita ke Bukit Bintang aje ler... Senang sikit tak perlu naik flight...
6 tahun: JALAN-JALAN? ?? DUDUK RUMAH AJE TAK BOLEH KE? BUANG DUIT JE!

TV:
6 minggu: Baby, kita nak tengok cite apa malam ini?
6 bulan : Sekejap eh, citer bagus ah.
6 tahun: JANGAN TUKAR-2 BOLE TAK ..

More Than 10 Years : X der keje lain ker, asyik tengok tv jer…

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~MaKaN-MaKaN BeRSAmA CiK YaYa~

Today aku bawak anak daraku yg cinonet tu gi giant.Sajer2 jenjalan sambil membeli brg dapur skit.

Sempat la jugak treat aya ice cream choc..Dia mmg suke.

Muka hepi pas makan ice cream.cememeh..

And belikan nestle gold cereal untuk dia.Aya nih mkn mcm2 food.Sebab dia kalau asik flavor sama je nanti dia buhsan.So i tried giving her different kind of cereals for each meal.Aya 1 day mamam 3 kali approximately.Between meals ada snack time.Iaitu makan biskut heinz or milna rusk.Bagi dia gigit2.And aya still fully breastfeed.

Nih la koleksi makanan cik yaya.Yang dalam tupperware ijau tuh flavor chicken and vege.Then ade perisa rice and milk,brown rice and milk,honey with wheat,and nestle rice with apple and cranberry.And ade lg satu perisa cereal dia iaitu mixed fruits.Rusk plak ade milna rusk yg ori flavor,heinz ori flavor and heinz orange flavor.Sumenyer untuk cik yaya.Nak pujuk bg dia mkn.Xpela,bak kata daddy,"Ape saje utk anak tersayang."

~BeRTaMBaH SuDaH UsIa AkU..~

Hurm..hari ni my besday.Yg ke brape??Muda lg la..Tp arini cam x besh.Daddy tuh senang2 nak sentap plak.And aku plak migraine teruk dr semalam.X larat rsnya nak bgn.So cam xde pape la.Hurm.Xde maknanya.Xpela.Mmg x celebrate pun.Huhu.
(sighs 1000x.....)

~SuNScReeN-BaZ LurHMaN~

Suddenly this morning i came to remember this song..or should i say speech?It became really famous in 97.Topping the world charts for months.

Read and listen to this guys.Nampak cam crapping but what it says actually is the reality of life.A good advice in such a creative way.Buat anda memandang kembali kebelakang sebelum anda melangkah ke depan?.I like one part the most.hehe.Recall in a way you can't grasp now how much possibility lay before You and how fabulous you really looked….You're not as fat as you Imagine.

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Ladies and Gentlemen of the class of '97
Wear sunscreen
If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be
It. The long term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by
Scientists whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable
Than my own meandering
Experience…I will dispense this advice now.



Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth; oh nevermind; you will not
Understand the power and beauty of your youth until they have faded.
But trust me, in 20 years you'll look back at photos of yourself and
Recall in a way you can't grasp now how much possibility lay before
You and how fabulous you really looked….You're not as fat as you
Imagine.



Don't worry about the future; or worry, but know that worrying is as
Effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing
Bubblegum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that
Never crossed your worried mind; the kind that blindside you at 4pm
On some idle Tuesday.



Do one thing everyday that scares you

Sing

Don't be reckless with other people's hearts, don't put up with
People who are reckless with yours.

Floss


Don't waste your time on jealousy; sometimes you're ahead, sometimes
You're behind…the race is long, and in the end, it's only with
Yourself.

Remember the compliments you receive, forget the insults; if you
Succeed in doing this, tell me how.

Keep your old love letters, throw away your old bank statements.

Stretch

Don't feel guilty if you don't know what you want to do with your
Life…the most interesting people I know didn't know at 22 what they
Wanted to do with their lives, some of the most interesting 40 year
Olds I know still don't.

Get plenty of calcium.

Be kind to your knees, you'll miss them when they're gone.

Maybe you'll marry, maybe you won't, maybe you'll have children, maybe
You won't, maybe you'll divorce at 40, maybe you'll dance the funky
Chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary…what ever you do, don't
Congratulate yourself too much or berate yourself either – your
Choices are half chance, so are everybody else's. Enjoy your body,
Use it every way you can…don't be afraid of it, or what other people
Think of it, it's the greatest instrument you'll ever
Own...

Dance…even if you have nowhere to do it but in your own living room.

Read the directions, even if you don't follow them.

Do NOT read beauty magazines, they will only make you feel ugly.

(Brother and sister together we'll make it through
Someday your spirit will take you and guide you there
I know you've been hurting, but I've been waiting to be there
For you. And I'll be there, just tell me now, whenever I can.
Everybody's free.)

Get to know your parents, you never know when they'll be gone for
Good.


Be nice to your siblings; they are the best link to your past and the
People most likely to stick with you in the future.

Understand that friends come and go, but for the precious few you
Should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and
Lifestyle because the older you get, the more you need the people you
Knew when you were young.

Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard; live
In Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft.

Travel.

Accept certain inalienable truths, prices will rise, politicians will
Philander, you too will get old, and when you do you'll fantasize
That when you were young prices were reasonable, politicians were
Noble and children respected their elders.

Respect your elders.

Don't expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund,
Maybe you have a wealthy spouse; but you never know when either one
Might run out.

Don't mess too much with your hair, or by the time you're 40, it will
Look 85.

Be careful whose advice you buy, but, be patient with those who
Supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia, dispensing it is a way of
Fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the
Ugly parts and recycling it for more than
It's worth.

But trust me on the sunscreen…

(Brother and sister together we'll make it through
Someday your spirit will take you and guide you there
I know you've been hurting, but I've been waiting to be there
For you. And I'll be there, just tell me now, whenever I can.
Everybody's free.)

~LiKe MuMmY LikE DoTeR~

Below nih pic aku.Mmmg agak blur.Almaklum gambar 20 tahun lepas.

Pg nih menggodek pen drive sebab nak edit pic aya,terjumpa lak pic aku time baby dulu.Bila tgk balik mmg aya ni cam muka ai time keciks dulu.Dgn rambut yg ala2 boyish tu.Tp rambut aya rsnya ikut rambut daddy sebab x brape ikal cam rambut mummynyer.Tp bab muka,kulit,mmg sama.Kan?

PsstT..mmg blur skit gambar nih..

~EvEnTuaLLy~

I'm an opportunity, and I knock so softly.
Sometimes I get loud when I wish everybody'd just get off me.
So many players you'd think I was a board game.
It's every man for himself. There are no teammates.
This life gets lonely when everybody wants something.
They'll smile up in your face, but they'll get theirs eventually,
and I hope I'm there.

Surrounded by familiar faces with no names.
None of them know me or want to share my pain.
They only wish to bask in my light then fade away.
To win my love, to them a game, to watch me live my life in vain.
When all is done and the good fades away they'll get theirs eventually,
and I hope I'm there.

I drank your poison, 'cause you told me it's wine.
Shame on you if you fooled me once. Shame on me if you fooled me twice.
I didn't know the price. You'll get yours eventually.
So what good am I to you if I can't be broken.
You'll get yours, yes, you'll get yours eventually.

sing-along music box tepi tu k..